I guess this post has been a long time in the making… I’ve come to terms with so much lately, and I feel like typing will clear my head.
First and foremost, I’m so sick of everyone trying to stress me out about almost every part of my life. Do you understand what a panic attack is? I don’t believe you, if you answered yes, because you never seem to want to prevent mine… and if you did you would keep your mouth closed about certain things.
He makes everything better. I can’t explain it and honestly I don’t know why, but being with him spending every minute I have with him gives me hope. When we’re together I feel like I have a future. He is my future.
So let me alone. Yes… he comes first now… and I know sometimes that may not be the right choice… but he keeps me happy, and I finally know I deserve to be happy.
I have also realized that you can’t control life all the time… but I can take control of who I want in my life at this moment… and I need him. So basically what I’m saying is once you find someone that makes you as happy as he makes me you don’t let that person go.
I find comfort in the fact I might very well spend the rest of my life with this boy… it also scares the hell out of me. But I love him, and it makes me happy to believe we can one day get married.
Anyways, all this talk is basically me thinking out loud, but it’s helping. I just can’t understand how the people that say they care about you, don’t realize when i’ve finally found something makes me believe in life.
Before I fell in love a lot of things didn’t make sense… and I guess they still don’t but more things do now. I know so much more just by having his love.
And this all probably sounds corny but I don’t give a fuck anymore.
I found my place and it’s next to him.
I’m done for now….
I’m in love. 💞 #boyfriend #love #smiles #nighttime #night #happy #happiness #couple #messyhair
Dinner with my love. 🍝🍔 #boyfriend #dinner #love #dennys #food #baby #hearts #bestest #photoaday #funny #life #